The Bored Astronaut

Insomniac brooding

June 21st, 2007 by bored

How do you know if you really care about someone, as opposed to just needing them to be around? How do you know if people care about you, instead of just needing you to be around? When someone says, “I love you” do they really mean “I like that you love/like me?” Is there any difference? When people tell you, “You’re a good person,” do they really mean, “You’re good to me and so I like you”? Do people only evaluate one another on their immediate pragmatic value? Can you care for someone that you don’t respect? Would you want someone to care for you if they didn’t respect you? Is it wrong to tell someone that you don’t respect them? Or is it right? If you care about them? If you love them? If you like them? If you respect them in some ways, but not in others? Are people dishonest with those they care about for selfish or selfless reasons? Both? Neither? Is everyone just using everyone else? Is that wrong, or right, or neither? Does goodness always feel good? Is love good? Does love always feel good? Does goodness exist? Does love exist?

Today is my birthday, and I’m going to see the sun rise. Not by choice; just because I feel asleep at nine thirty and woke up at two thirty, and spent two hours researching Cocoa exception handling issues, and now I have to re-write some code even though I don’t want to.

I am thirty-seven years old. Have I wasted my life? Have I accomplished anything? Have I lived well? Have I done good things? Awful things? Have I contributed more than I’ve taken, or less? Is it measurable? Is it a nonsensical question?

Why don’t people value improvement of themselves and their world? Why are people complacent, cowardly and dishonest? Why am I unhappy with the state of the world and with people? What can I change? What should I change? Why don’t people take responsibility for themselves and the consequences of their actions? Why are people so stupid and pathetic? Why do people treat falsehoods as true? Why do people want to be deceived and deluded? Why can’t people face the fact that life is uncertain and that death is inevitable? Why do adults behave like children crying for their parents to make it better?

How should you respond when someone important to you lies to you, makes you false and insincere promises, and then betrays you because you question their deceit? With humility, or vengeance?

I didn’t get to see the sun rise, because it is cloudy on the Eastern horizon. But I don’t believe in omens. I don’t believe in anything. Belief is not required. Life goes on.

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Is it bad to own an expensive car?

June 20th, 2007 by bored

You can get a lot of mileage with a question like that amongst ethicists.

Today, Adam, one of my co-workers took issue with the idea of owning a car worth six hundred thousand dollars. While I would also take issue with it, I simply don’t like it. Although I could write a long argument which justified (or tried to justify) my opinion, that’s all it would be: an opinion. In fact, it’s just a feeling. Adam narrowly avoided contradicting himself when he explained that he agreed that it was only an opinion, and that even though he wasn’t trying to convince anyone that he was right, that it wouldn’t be right for him, for ethical reasons. That is, he implied that his feelings about (excessively) expensive (luxury) cars, and the (inferred) self-centredness of owning one, underlie his negative feelings about such.

I could have discussed the issue all day, because it highlights all kinds of questions and issues which fascinate me eternally. We didn’t have all day, unfortunately, but only our lunch break. So I will bore you with it now.

Part of Adam’s reasoning is that owning an expensive car would not, for him, be the best way that he could do good in the world with the money which that car cost. More specifically, that in some way, it empowered him to do good in a way which he could not without it. At some point, he also gave me the impression that any person should follow the same kind of thinking. He used complicated logic to state what would otherwise be obvious, except for one point, which he left unspoken.

His argument comes from that of utility. Personally, I love the idea of utilitarianism, but in most cases, you simply cannot evaluate with any reliability the outcome of such decisions in terms of the amount of good that comes out of them, except in the initial act. Moreover, and this is the real point: everyone works on the utility principle anyway, unless they are working on the pleasure principle.

But we are all working on the pleasure principle. We simply all take pleasure from different things. The disagreements in life have nothing to do with anyone being more or less right than anyone else. There is no monopoly on right and wrong, despite what countless people will tell you (including a great number of non-faithful, non-religious yet nevertheless self-righteous people—even me, some of the time, though ideally only in the context of an explicitly or tacitly shared belief system, in which case I am attempting to point out a contradiction in thinking). Utilitarianism itself is about pleasure. Pleasure is the only measure of goodness—except for irrational feelings which seem to transcend pleasure, and are simply intuitive or instinctual morality. You can argue that the satisfaction of such personal morality is itself a pleasure.

Unfortunately for utilitarianism, there is no way to either a) measure relative pleasure, or b) calculate the long-term ethical consequences of any decision. Society is a non-linear complex system. There are certainly some acts which have undoubtedly bad long-term consequences … or perhaps I mean mid-term—it depends on the time scale! The butterfly effect means that by lending someone a quarter to make a phone call, you might set off a chain of events that leads to a bomb being detonated.

In economics, your purchases are the concrete expression of how you value something. If you buy a luxury car, then you are saying that your pleasure in owning that car exceeds the pleasure that would come from, say, that of the group of people who could eat and sleep in a shelter for a few months or years if you were to donate the balance of the money after buying an affordable car (or using public transit, or working within walking distance from home, or whatever).

Buying things is a person’s way of acknowledging their belief that they (pardon my genderless plural singular) are more important than other people. Not buying things says the opposite.

If someone has a problem with one person acting out their belief, as a consumer, in their own superiority over others, then there is little (though not no) point in telling them so. (It’s not “no point” because guilt can be effective, sometimes.)

My preferred method would be to point out that short-term self-indulgence equates to long-term self-neglect, although the vast majority of self-centred people already know this, but simply can’t sufficiently imagine how badly they will feel in a future of poor health from bad eating and other habits and a broken down, desperation-driven paranoid society, versus how good they will feel this minute from chocolate cake, smokes, porn and fast automobiles right now. Of course, it’s even easier to give in to indulgence when one has the mind’s power to rationalize, shift blame, and deny that there will be any consequences to short-term selfishness at all.

So, what was ultimately problematic about Adam’s discussion was that he glossed over the key fact which makes it moot: people aren’t that smart, nor very imaginative, nor very honest. Lacking those essential qualities, then you will be hard pressed to make even the slightest dent in their thinking. Especially since the lack of those qualities generally means that they don’t think very much at all. And certainly not reasonably.

A last word on capitalism. There is no immediate moral or ethical problem with wealth. Money is simply an agreement about how to trade work. Society as a group decides what work is valuable (well, mostly people with money decide that, so unfortunately it isn’t very democratic). But it’s what you do with the money you have that matters. Few people simply hide it under their mattress or stockpile gold and jewels (though I suppose some do). Surplus money is banked or invested. It’s the investment that makes the difference, ethically. Again, it’s not about universal ethics, but merely how well one person’s preferences gel with others’, and in particular, the ethics which are inherent in the law, a reflection of society’s beliefs.

Interestingly, the Bible makes the same point about hoarding wealth (the parable of the talents). Idle money is akin to an idle person. Idleness is to sacrifice tomorrow to a kind of nothingness today. This hurts everyone, and comes from a tendency to self-destruction borne of self-hatred. Though I’m not sure why that parable ignores the case where the money is invested on the stock market before a big correction.

The point is that money is just a concrete representation of effort, and it’s the effort that has ethical value. Wealthy people are not necessarily more selfish than others. It’s a question of how the money (and time) we have is put to use, and how we encourage others to use their time, not how we use the things they produce, necessarily. If we need things (tools) to do something, we will acquire those things, or do our best with the things we have, unless we are are irrational.

All in all, it is best to ignore attempts to evaluate actions on so-called Utilitarian principles. The ends cannot be used to justify the means. You must accept that some actions are ethical in your world view, and some are not, because you cannot effect the cause you want by the efforts you exert in any but the simplest cases, and you certainly cannot determine the happiness of others by your purchases, except for those from whom you buy an enable them to buy things that they need, without with they would be very unhappy. Though who you spare unhappiness in this way is not especially important; it will always be someone.

So you must determine your own virtues, and they must be active, not passive, or they are not real. You cannot profit by idleness or restraint alone. You must act. It is not about not lying, but spreading truth. It is not about not murdering, but about preserving life. It is not about preventing ugliness, but about creating beauty. It is not about escaping ignorance, but embracing enlightenment. Go forth, and do good things.

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Dogs still have flees; people still ignorant

June 20th, 2007 by bored

According to a Globe and Mail story:

New polls show that a larger share of Americans - 53 per cent - believe in evolution than do Ontario residents, only 51 per cent of whom believe that “human beings evolved from less advanced life forms over millions of years.”

Over all, 59 per cent of Canadians said they believe in evolution, according to the Angus Reid poll of 1,088 adults conducted June 12-13. Twenty-two per cent agreed that “God created human beings in their present form within the last 10,000 years,” and 19 per cent told pollsters they weren’t sure.

Even those who say they believe in evolution may be confused about what that means exactly. The poll found 42 per cent of Canadians agree that dinosaurs and humans co-existed on earth - but evolutionary theory says non-avian dinosaurs died out about 60 million years before humans evolved in their current form.

And we used to push our cars around with our feet, too.

This is really basic stuff. Do people simply hate to know anything? Do they despise learning? I almost blame the sheep less than I do their opportunistic and expediency-dependent shepherds. Is it human nature to simply believe everything you’re told? Are people so naive, so hopelessly illogical, so desperate that they’ll trust anyone who gives them a smile? Is the average person simply incapable of basic reasoning? Or does he simply not care? Satisfy his appetites, make him feel safe and secure with a job and a warm place to live; who could ask for more? Isn’t humble, honest living enough?

It would be, if it were remotely honest. In actual fact, it’s a numbers game. People gamble that their world will be reliable, dependable and safe for long enough for them to reproduce and see their progeny meet or exceed their own material comfort level. Never mind that such docility and passiveness leaves the unscrupulous the freedom to plan their wars and conquests, using the rest of us as disposable appliances of productivity. Repent and educate yourself. Stop whoring yourself for false confidence and imaginary security. Consume and be consumed. You live and die by your ignorance.

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Well, I guess that’s that, then

June 18th, 2007 by bored

From Our Civilization:

Our civilization has been declining since the late Eighteenth century (see “A Study Of History” by Professor Arnold Toynbee), which means that since then the majority of citizens of western civilization have been selfish — for selfishness is the influence that rejects moral restraint, along with its associated beliefs. In place of the guide of tradition the selfish rely upon feelings to recognise right from wrong and fact from fancy. Now, after more than two centuries of discarding and reversing traditions, most citizens are fools who can neither tell right from wrong nor fact from fancy.

I guess I can finally put to rest any vestiges of egotistical fancies about helping reverse the tide of cultural and socio-political idiocy. No wonder I’ve been so discouraged.

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Toronto Google Satellite Imagery Updated

June 13th, 2007 by bored

They removed the annoying cloud over my apartment building. Kitchener/Waterloo also updated. Here’s a list of changes. I have no idea how official it is. Link courtesy this page (Google Maps Mania).

The site I got the link from links to Hong Kong, China. I’ve never looked at it before. It’s astounding. The uniformity of the construction; so many high-rises that are the same! The area of the city appears much smaller than the outrageous sprawl of Toronto, but it’s much higher density (6,352 /km² versus 2,718.29/km² for Toronto’s urban region—figures from Wikipedia).

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Back to the white water

June 8th, 2007 by bored

… for more rafting. I’m always ambivalent about outdoor adventures, being a born shut-in. But I believe in the importance of challenging yourself. There is more good in life than simply sitting around being comfortable. It seems that, aside from thunder storms tonight (which may lead to as many raised hairs as tents), the weather is going to be perfect.

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Whiners ‘R’ Us

June 5th, 2007 by bored

So, this flibbertigibbit thinks that Judd Apatow “stole” her premise for Knocked Up from her book. Can you say “ludicrous”? You cannot “steal” a premise. Premises are free. End of story. Enjoy being humiliated in court, Ms. Eckler. I’m sure that you will be able to crank countless column inches from the experience. You are fluff.

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Awesome awesomeness

June 5th, 2007 by bored

Are you my enemy, or my nemesis? Who are they? I’m dismayed not to know with any reliability, though I can think of some candidates. [This post has been edited to be less nonsensical.]

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Why are Libertarians so Stupid?

June 5th, 2007 by bored

The central premise that government is evil while “unfettered” capitalism (please) is good is simply dense. The distinction is moot. Governments are economic agents as much as any business. But moreover, all economic operation is performed under the auspices of (predominantly military) power. Force always ways and always shall be the end of all things. Only the physical world is truly real, and force is the first and last real kind of influence. Economics itself (well, trade) is a kind of material influence (I’ll make this for you if you make that for me), trade is just a kind of physicality.

Ultimately, absent any government or other non-productive economic power, one will step in to fill the void. People have to be told what to do, and much of the work of organizing people is in itself neither productive nor profitable. Government is inevitable, like it or hate it. All societies are self-organizing. Governments are an inevitable evolution of that natural fact. Anyone opposed to governments will say it’s in everyone’s interest to remove them, but given the opportunity, they would replace it with one of their own liking, which privileged them over others, and simply call it a business or some other label. All actions are self-interested. Some are simply more honest and transparent than others.

(I just read some absurd stuff on the Internet which inspired this.)

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Google Cheek

June 4th, 2007 by bored

Anyone for a swim? (Check step 17.)

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